tfw you feel like your serotonin level just dropped rapidly.
Grade A premium awake.
Served now with more awake.
Right now for no reason at all I feel as though something shined on me to make me the happiest man in the world right now.
But nothing is good or better than it was before, I’m just manic and smoked a lot of pot.
Is this happiness or thrust upon me unkowingly, it does not feel like my emotion..
As I read over this post my mania dulls slightly exposing the beast of insane paranoia and depression that will be with me in a week or so.
I turn 18 in 8 days, my gut turns at the thought.
Who am I now, what have I done right for I know I have done much wrong.
Idk if anyone would even read this far, wish me happy birthday on the eighth please!
I’m banned from my best friends house for a month,
His mum found my other bestfriend and my bong, she’ll call the cops on us if we rock up apparently,
To top it all off, I recently made a 6k investment in his business.
I feel like fucking killing myself and crying and dying and my fucking life is over qnd I’m lonely and the real loneliness is already setting in, I have no fucking friends now and fucking FUFK THIS FUCKING STUPID SHIT I HATE IT I HATE IT I FUCKING
You elusive thing,
When I can’t have you,
I am sad,
When I can,
I sleep too much,
I hate you this doesn’t have to rhyme.